It's not a matter of having to worry...I just think it comes with the territory of caring about you.
[He may not have relaxed completely, but it is a relief to see Ryunosuke start to unfurl himself form the defense posture. He knows his partner trusts him, but it still hurts to see him so closed off.]
I understand...I think it is something we need to talk about. Eventually. And I will be here to listen when you are ready to do so. [There was a lot tangled up in it, but Kazuma knows it's not something to press. He was there, he can imagine why he's not in a place where he's willing to talk about it yet.]
Do I really need to talk about it? [He asks, almost with a whine as he rubs his face.] I don't particularly want to relive the details of my demise, but it constantly haunts my dreams.
[He doesn't want to talk, but at the same time, maybe talking will help -- just not now.] I thought if I stayed up late enough exhaustion would take me. So far I'm just tired but not enough to sleep.
I think you do. [He knows it isn't what he wants to hear, but he isn't going to lie to him either.] And if you talked to me, you wouldn't have to go through all the details...
[He'd actually rather not relive it either if he's honest. But Ryunosuke had to talk about it with someone, and he would gladly volunteer.] If you don't make moves to actually process anything, it will only get worse.
...We could try to sleep first if you'd like. It may come easier with some company.
I know. I know, I just... I don't think I'm ready to talk about it.
[Which means it's likely going to need to be forced out of him. He wasn't planning on talking about his death any time soon. What was healthy processing? He still has not processed the Sleeper Farm.]
Company? [He glances over at Kazuma, before he nods.] Company would be nice, actually.
I'm not sure that there is a moment of being truly ready to talk about this sort of thing. You just...have to at some point. [As though he could really talk, when it came right down to it.] I...don't want to force it out of you. But I won't simply let it drop either.
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Date: 2022-10-02 11:26 pm (UTC)[He drops one of his feet back onto the floor, trying to unfurl himself, to make himself look more open and less defensive.]
Not particularly. [He hates admitting that cause he knows he can go to Kazuma about anything.]
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Date: 2022-10-02 11:32 pm (UTC)[He may not have relaxed completely, but it is a relief to see Ryunosuke start to unfurl himself form the defense posture. He knows his partner trusts him, but it still hurts to see him so closed off.]
I understand...I think it is something we need to talk about. Eventually. And I will be here to listen when you are ready to do so. [There was a lot tangled up in it, but Kazuma knows it's not something to press. He was there, he can imagine why he's not in a place where he's willing to talk about it yet.]
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Date: 2022-10-03 09:45 pm (UTC)[He doesn't want to talk, but at the same time, maybe talking will help -- just not now.] I thought if I stayed up late enough exhaustion would take me. So far I'm just tired but not enough to sleep.
I'm not sure what else to do.
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Date: 2022-10-03 10:50 pm (UTC)[He'd actually rather not relive it either if he's honest. But Ryunosuke had to talk about it with someone, and he would gladly volunteer.] If you don't make moves to actually process anything, it will only get worse.
...We could try to sleep first if you'd like. It may come easier with some company.
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Date: 2022-10-03 11:33 pm (UTC)[Which means it's likely going to need to be forced out of him. He wasn't planning on talking about his death any time soon. What was healthy processing? He still has not processed the Sleeper Farm.]
Company? [He glances over at Kazuma, before he nods.] Company would be nice, actually.
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Date: 2022-10-03 11:36 pm (UTC)[Stubborn.]
...Yours or mine?